December 2011
1 post
I feel like this is going to be bad.
November 2011
2 posts
I just want someone to tell me that everything will be okay, that I’m not an idiot and everything I do for everyone will pay off one day.
But I know it won’t. I’m wasting my life on other people.
I don’t like this at all.
September 2011
1 post
Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try or no matter what I do, no one really notices anything I do.
No one notices how hard I’ve been working, everything I’m doing to finish up school, or credits me for finally finishing high school and still working my ass off.
I feel like no matter what I do, for some people, I’ll never be enough.
June 2011
1 post
“You never spend time with me anymore, I hate it.”
And yet, every time I try to talk to you or tell you a story you don’t even listen.
Wonder why I don’t like being around you…
May 2011
3 posts
"Sometimes I get the feeling you don't even want...
Yeah, because everyone in the house is always bitching and it’s annoying.
Sometimes I’d really like to fucking know what the purpose of me living is. The only thing I care about anymore is Jordan. I need to get out of this rut I’m in.
Why can’t I do anything right?
eh, just don't get it.
April 2011
1 post
At this point, I don't even know how I could go on...
Everything seems so fucked up. I feel like I can’t take it anymore and I’m falling apart more and more everyday. I try to change things and they get worse instead of better. I just want to give up on trying. I want to run away with Jordan and never look back. I don’t know how much longer I can handle things being like this.
It’s fucking overwhelming. I feel like I’m...
March 2011
4 posts
I feel like I’ve lost all of my friends, partly by my own choices, partly due to theirs, the sad thing is, I think I’m okay with it.
I hate having so many people to disappoint and cater to.
Obviously only thinking about negative things sets a negative affect on everything else. Maybe I don’t need this blog as bad as I thought I did. I guess it’ll be good for times when I feel sad or lonely, or if I’ve had a really stressful day. But for the most part, I think I’ll be okay. I don’t think I’m any good at life, I suck at it, but who doesn’t?...
I’m one of those people who feel like they have to please everyone. I need to do everything in my power to ensure that the people around me are happy. It’s not that I want to make them happy, it’s like I have to. I feel like a disappointment when I can’t make someone happy. Like I ruined everything and I should’ve made a different decision. I try to make my mom happy and do everything she asks....
