I still feel really alone sometimes.
I feel like this is going to be bad.
I just want someone to tell me that everything will be okay, that I’m not an idiot and everything I do for everyone will pay off one day.
But I know it won’t. I’m wasting my life on other people.
I don’t like this at all.
Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try or no matter what I do, no one really notices anything I do.
No one notices how hard I’ve been working, everything I’m doing to finish up school, or credits me for finally finishing high school and still working my ass off.
I feel like no matter what I do, for some people, I’ll never be enough.
“You never spend time with me anymore, I hate it.”
And yet, every time I try to talk to you or tell you a story you don’t even listen.
Wonder why I don’t like being around you…
“Sometimes I get the feeling you don’t even want to be home anymore, am I right?”
Yeah, because everyone in the house is always bitching and it’s annoying.
Sometimes I’d really like to fucking know what the purpose of me living is. The only thing I care about anymore is Jordan. I need to get out of this rut I’m in.
Why can’t I do anything right?
